It has been a while since I posted anything. I would just like to give everyone a brief overview of what has been happening in my life recently. As some of you know March and April are called “tax season” for me. This year it was busy at work and with school; hence why I have not posted anything in a while. Basically, my life consisted of work, school and being lazy whenever I had a free moment. Recently I have taken up the hobby of painting, I have always loved art, whether that art is on paper, canvas or in the form of music. This has been a source of inspiration for me, because recently I have been so distracted with many different things. Everyday I realize the new things the Devil tries to distract me with. It is hard to resist sometime, and lately I have found it extremely difficult.
The Bible never promised us an easy life and it has been clear to me in the last couple of months that it won’t be, but when we put our trust in the Lord he will give us strength. “but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint” Isaiah 40:31. What does it mean “those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength”? Well I believe that it means that God will pull us a through situations. All that God asks in return for this strength is that we put our trust in Him, that we love Him and love others. Even though we go through tough times or if we fail God will be there to pick us up and lead us.
Recently, on a junior youth evening Autumn one of the youth pastors at Grace Mennonite Church was talking about overcoming fears, and it really hit me that evening that I have been holding some trust back from God. One of my biggest fears in life may seem a little strange, but it is the ability to give up control. Let me give you an example. If I have to do a school project with some other students I would love to control everything that went on. I would want to be in charge of the idea, the plan, and the end result. If I could I would choose to do the whole project myself. It seems weird right? Why would someone want to do all the work if they could just take the easy road and let everyone else do the work? Well, let me explain. When you work as a group you might have one person who doesn’t do their job, this could cause the group to fail. My thoughts are that if I do the whole project and fail it is my failure, but if I fail because of someone else, it will look like my failure, but really it is because of someone else.
That probably doesn’t make a whole lot of sense, but in my mind it does. The point I am trying to make with this long explanation is that, I have serious trust issues, not just with strangers, but with the people I have known for years. Even worse than not trusting the people in my life I have often not trusted God. I want to get to the point in my life where I can always say “I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” Psalm 91:2. It is not going to be an easy road as I stated above, but with God all things are possible and I truly believe that one day I will trust Him and everyone around me.
I want to end off with this challenge to my readers, trust the people around you, share your life story with someone, share what God is doing in your life, share what the Bible is teaching you. There are so many things that we can share with the people around us, when we share these things our trust with each other will grow. If you have never heard my life story and would like to or if you would like to share your story or any of the things I mentioned above with me I would be happy to listen. Just give me a shout out on Facebook, Twitter, e-mail or text message.